My Confession Box

Friday, January 09, 2009

On the 9th of January 12.43pm I finally completed my first poem supposedly a sonnet that has incorporated a rhyme scheme. Though not perfectly written but still it took me hours along with heightened emotions and inspiration. Perhaps the next thing to work on would be a better rhyme scheme and iambic pentameter.

Loving You – By Perry Tan written in dedication to “You Know Who” the girl that he loves.
Each day just as the sun rises in the east and sets in the west,
A silly person awaits by his window in hope that one day that day would come.
Helpless and lost, he leaves fate to work his mast
When that day comes, he will no longer be alone

Like a ship that has bombarded into an iceberg,
we often find these gaps within ourselves
Longing for that other half to fill these gaps that lurk
we desperately search for the answers above all else

Each day he longs for that other half to fill these gaps of his.
But yet this day will never come and all that is left is to run
To run to chase this ever running breeze
to grasp hold of the comfort that it gives

Like the leaves of a tree that has to eventually wither,
He knows that before he runs he eventually has to stop
Even though short-lived, but for this sweetness it has to be eventually bitter
When all comes to a standstill he would sit by his window counting upon his remaining days

Maybe one day the breeze would come to him of its own accordance.
Hopefully that day wouldn’t be the day in which the sun no longer rises from the east

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Dear “You Know Who”,
I happened to have a chat with one of my friends lately and it seems that the world is indeed a complex place to live in. Often I wonder to myself, what actually is love. Perhaps a year ago, I wouldn’t have a clue of what it meant because it was too complicated for the simple minded me. Well through the years I realize that some do it for the sake of lifting up their social status, some others think of it as a game to determine a winner. Well the point is that everyone has a different perception of it and some of it just leaves me disgusted.

I wouldn’t dare say my perception of love is the “Right” one, but what I am sure of is that I take it very seriously and I want to tell you is that I am sorry for being such a lousy guy, one that seems to take so little initiative, one that keeps too low a profile, one that is too quiet, one that doesn’t know what to do, one that is too lost at what to do.
You have taught me what it means to love someone and it is through loving you that I have learnt how simple love could be. There are too many things that I wish to say and too many things that I wish I had done.
I really wished that I could be the real one that would stand by you throughout, giving you flowers and buying you breakfast each day, sending you home when you your alone (recall the day you were in RP late at night doing your FYP Report), catching and chasing the lizards and cockroaches out of your house even though I am scared too, and even though I am useless at times I would lend you my hand so that you could bite it that way I could share with you the pain you felt when you had your neck stiffness. I’d be your shoulder to cry on and your best friend. And I’d spend every day trying to think of how to make you laugh, because when you are happy laughing it is simply a sight that is amazing to behold.

I hope that you don’t think that I feel awkward around you all the time, because I want to tell you that each time I lay my eyes on you, the emotion that overwhelms me is happiness. However if I have caused you to feel awkward in any sense, I apologize for what I have done. Because I am the blur king, I don't even know if you like me to address you as "You Know Who" and neither do I know how you feel about me. But don't worry I did mention before that the answer is no longer important to me, you don't have to give me an answer.

Ultimately I want to let you know that no matter how cloudy and uncertain the future might be, I would be the hand that warms you in the coldest winter and you could always talk to me when your down or whatsoever. Remember that there is a silly guy named Perry that will remember your birthday and at any festive season for instance Christmas you would be the very first person that I would think of. I would be ever curious about what goes on around you each and every day. This applies no matter how far we are apart. Be it 3km, 30km or even 30,000km.

(Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation. – Khalil Gibran)
I would like to dedicate this song to “You Know Who” -吳克群明天過後

[It is not about what we talk about or what we do but it's simply about being together]

the origin.11:28 PM