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Friday, June 27, 2008
There is this saying “In troubled times, do not blame your friends for being selfish to abandon you because there comes a time in which every man lives for himself”. Lately, I asked Zubin what is a friend? Zubin tells me that a friend is one which you feel comfortable with. I responded to tell him that you friend is one that wishes the best for you even to the extent of wishing and being happy for him or her when she is of a better state then you.
Well, I would like to add on the list to mention that a friend is one who stands by you in troubled times. A friend is one that when in times of need, they wouldn’t turn their back on you. On TV a very common scene you would encounter is when in need of money and you approach your friend, they would come up with all sorts of excuses. Some say “Hey I am so sorry my relative is in hospital just lent them money, I’m a little tight.
Tomodachi... means friends in Japanese. Let us sit back and think about the above, how many friends do we have? Well for me I could clearly tell you zero. Sad isn’t it? Well, all along I have been a sad kid who really wants to have a group of friends as stated above, however I know it isn’t easy and my first step I am going to take isn’t to find these group of “Tomodachi”. But rather I would be a “True Friend” to my peers.
No one is perfect, it’s true. Your friends aren’t perfect either and they all have their human nature. However I am not saying that you should say “Hey you! You call yourself my friend?” The point I am trying to emphasize is that you should be a true friend towards others and in turn they would do the same for you I believe. Lately in church, the pastor has been mentioning about the spirit of god. Favours are not meant to be paid back, they are meant to be paid forward. I look forward to utilizing this concept in the context of friendship.
Just a few days back, I have started on my NAPFA training regime. I realized that sometimes it’s not about getting your friends to push you to exercise and therefore you exercise with them, rather it requires discipline. The good news is that today, the training showed its results on my Friday basketball sessions. Well, that’s just the minor part. The good news is that I am one step towards a healthy life style.
the origin.10:08 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Many would have been curious why my blog has such a weird name to begin with. Crusade of a pilgrim, refers to war that a traveller experiences. This war isn’t the typical ones where you see people cursing “G. Bush”, but a spiritual war that takes place every second.
I always felt that my father was a man who was “Overboard” in terms of zealousness towards Christianity. Throughout the past 3 years I have drifted very far away from god, I stopped going to church 3 years back and I loathe at the sight of my dad sharing with me the word of god. Yea, sure dad is very long-winded and one can get pissed being around him, however at times when I reflect upon the words that he shares, I see the truth within the word that he speaks.
I have not blogged for ages, I usually do so when I feel that something major has taken place in my life and it is important to note it. In my previous important experience, I felt that there was a void within me and I need to become a better person. I did not take action immediately but passively and slowly. Recently, I started to draw closer to God once again. I started to attend church 3 weeks back and it certainly feels good to do so.
I’ve always been curious by various questions. Take for instance, what is spiritual communication about and what was the hocus pocus with Christians speaking in tongues. Are they not just gibbering nonsense? Dad always told me, there’s a spirit behind various thoughts. Initially I found my Dad an extremist, he hated me to play games like Diablo and he even broke my computer games which he found inappropriate. When he first did that, I was like “What the hell did you do that for? Are you mad?”. To add on to that, whenever the family watches movie together he starts saying things like “This show is not suitable etc... , there are demonic forces behind these.” I was really freaked out by him initially. That was till I finally grasped hold of what it means by “spiritual communication”. Dad loves sharing with me the word of God and one such example of spiritual communication that he shares is about God’s answer to Daniel’s prayer, the arch angel told Daniel that he was late due to a spiritual war that was waged in the heavens. I finally understood that spiritual communication was akin to wavelengths and thoughts. There are certain thoughts that can be termed “Demonic” these thoughts are those that are not from god, and they include lust and wrath.
Curiosity has always spurred me to question myself, does that mean that being a Christian takes away your right of getting angry when someone provokes you? Does it mean that a guy can’t find a girlfriend and fantasize about them? If these are just some of the requirements of being a Christian, what’s the point then? But there is! There is a point of being a Christian. Certain thoughts have always crossed my mind, why do we believe in God? We don’t get to see him and it’s not possible to prove his existence, if the bibles are just teachings, isn’t it just then a philosophy of becoming a “Better Man”? Probing further I was wondering, why do miracles happen? The power of god does reveal itself by performing such miracles. Ok, this is the point in which I stop thinking and let faith do it’s job.
Recently, I was reading this book by Tony Evans, it was mentioned that God doesn’t wait in a sense that we should not put him last for the sake of our “Human Conveniences”. I was wondering then, because time does not avail me to join activities such as youth fellowship and all the cell group stuff, would it be fine then? Does it mean that certain activities have to be fulfilled? Well I didn’t get myself a definite answer but one thing for sure is that, the route to becoming a matured Christian is about the relationship between you and god and not based “Must Do” acitivities. After all each and every individual has a personal relationship with god.
the origin.1:00 AM
Name: Perry Tan Z.Y
Birthday: 22nd December 1988
Religion: Christian
Personality: INFJ
Loves: Basketball, Anime, HK, Korean and Chinese Dramas, Hanging out with friends, Watching Movies, "You Know ...", Gaming and Chinese Music
Hates these Traits ... Arrogance, Injustice, Insensitivity and Running Away (Even though I tend to run away a lot)
Wishlists: Enlightenment, Thought-Antagonist, Time Travel Machine, The other Puzzle Piece and A book called "How to become a Better Man"
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