My Confession Box

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Did You Know?
If I were to be described as an electronic appliance, you (“You Know Who”) would definitely be an Electromagnetic Pulse. Did you know that whenever my heart draws closer to yours, I get thrown into a state of confusion? Just like how electronic appliances get fried by EMP?

Did you know that ...
… on Friday August 01, 2008 you were nicknamed earth and I was nick named Amazo? Did you know how much Amazo struggled to get close to earth in fear of hurting earth?

… the 20th August 2008 was the first time we went out together? Did you know we went out for 8 hours?

… on the 23rd of August 2008, I wrote my first letter to you? Did you read it?

… on the 20th of September 2008 I was very upset because of the circumstances I was in? Did you know that I was sad because I couldn’t get close to you?

… on the 28th of September 2008 I read a book just because of your personal message?

… on the 3rd of October 2008 caring for you became a reflex action for me? Did you know that thinking about you floods me with happiness and torments me with immense sadness right after?

… on the 15th of October 2008 I wrote my first poem about how circumstances made a fool out of me?

… on the 21st of October 2008 I really wanted to give up because I thought we weren’t destined?

… on the 26th of October 2008I cleared my thoughts and decided to love you following the principle of “If I could, I would”

… on the 31st of October I was very happy that I confessed to you?

… on 5th of November 2008, I had a feeling that whatever you wrote was meant for someone else?

… on the 18th of November 2008, I knew I was not the knight that you wished for to rescue your from your castle?

… on the 19th of November 2008, I figured everything that I have done for you was from the bottom of my heart?

… on the 25th of November 2008, I was very fearful of the near future ahead in which we would be separated? Did you know that I dedicated the song to you to tell you despite how uncertain our future is, I would still be the hands that warms you in the coldest winter?

… on the 29th of November 2008, I totally did not know where we were heading?

… on the 2nd of December 2008, I wondered why earth didn’t respond to any of the cries of Amazo?

… on the 4th of December 2008, I decided that your very existence is the reason why I hang on each day hoping to see the next. Getting excited by what goes on around you and longing to see that beautiful smile of yours.

… on the 9th January 2009, I wrote a poem about loving you?

… on the 12th of January 2009, I was heartbroken because I realized that all these while all the messages weren’t meant for me? Did you know I felt like I fell in love with an illusion?

… on the 14th of January 2009, I decided to withdraw from society because I felt really stupid?

… on the 15th of January 2009, I decided to continue loving you in the shadows?

… on the 16th of January 2009, even though hurt I reflected and never regretted loving you?

… on the 18th of January 2009, I dreamt about you a few times? Did you know how happy I was to see you, and how sad I was to realize that it was just a dream?

… on the 30th of January 2009, the thought of you leaving soon made me sad?

… on the 11th of February 2009, I decided to leave our fate to destiny?

… on the 25th of January 2010, I felt stupid for all the things I have done for you?

… on the 7th of February 2010 you were mentioned in “Ever wondered why the world was so paradoxical”?

… on the 14th of February 2010, I was highly confused about how I felt about you? Did you know I really wanted to give up loving you?

Did you know that I've never wrote poems for anyone before?

Did you know that I was never so flustered because of someone?

Did you know that I’m very confused by what’s our relationship? Are we more than friends but less than lovers?

Did you know that after 1 year and 6 months since the day I had feelings for you, I still love you?

the origin.11:29 PM

Sunday, February 07, 2010

Ever wondered why the world is so paradoxical? – By Perry
Sometimes to do the right thing, you have to do the wrong ones.
Sometimes to love someone, you must not fall in love.
Sometimes in order to save something, you have to destroy that very thing.
Sometimes to lead a happy life, you have to lead a sad life.
Sometimes the big things in life are the little things.
Sometimes to get the life that you wish for, you have to live a life that you would never have wished before.
Sometimes to get to the top you have to fall to the very bottom.
Sometimes to fill your cup, you have to first empty it.
Sometimes to go right, you have to go left.

(The above are a collection of what I have experienced in my life time.)

[ Another song that I like a lot =D]

You’d probably be bored hearing this phrase once again … “I finally understood”. Perhaps to some of you, it might seem that I’m taking this word lightly. However through your walk in life, you’d probably use this phrase just as often as I did. After all, the essence of life itself is learning.

I finally understood something lately. I understood what I wanted in my past 6 months of life. What I wanted was not just a more relaxed lifestyle but rather what I wanted was to have a group of close friends. If you know me well, you’d probably know Perry is terrible when it comes to adapting to changes. However within this past 6 months, things have been changing drastically for me at every turn. Finally when I settle down at 1 place, I have to move to another and when I begged to return I eventually made friends and got used to life. Perhaps you guys won’t be reading this but Bunk 7, I love you guys. Even though we bicker at times and have ego issues however I had hell a lot of fun. We have got to be one of the best crapping gangs.

(Sometimes, the grass at the other side is not always greener. So, don’t always wander off to greener pastures.)

What do certain figures or numbers mean to you? Even though I once mentioned that I hope to become like Gilbert Arenas in a sense that he flipped a coin to determine the course of action of something and instead of going the way it turned out to be, he went against the odds. However there are some things in life in which we can’t place such a high stake. Imagine this, if you were to place a bet placing all your estates at stake and your chance of doubling it is 80%, it sounds pretty positive isn’t it? However, when a life is at stake it’s a whole different story. Unlike a simple gamble, we have to understand that it doesn’t end after a flip of a coin. There are implications to it such as the aftermath, the possibility of a reoccurrence, the chance that other risk factors will be triggered. When chance is brought to the surgical table, a 25% risks seems a lot more than it should.

Hope is like a road in the country; there was never a road, but when many people walk on it, the road comes into existence. – Lin Yu Tang

[To wake up every morning with a hope that today will be a better day as compared to yesterday]

the origin.11:30 PM