It's like 11.20pm now, just came home from helicon leadership training camp today, it's suppose to be a 2 day thing but I won't be attending because I am really not feeling well and am very tired.
Well I believe the camp did meet certain objectives such as bonding us better at least I made some new friends and we working on specific target goals with other IG's under helicon. Well I always thought that perhaps debate was the oddball within helicon, perhaps the only one that have been giving problems coming up joint venture projects. But apparently I was wrong, it seems that the other Ig's are also facing such an ordeal. Well we brain stormed on the management committee earlier on during the day. I am glad to see that the committee members realize that they have been putting too heavy of a workload on me, I am like making decisions, working on logistics, corresponding with advisers, furthermore I have no prior leadership experience.
Well I will be stepping down soon and I am really relieved, finally I can spend some "Quality" time. Hmm... just had some insights today, helicon is a new club, getting 5 different ig's working together is even a harder thing, but I believe that everyone has his or her onside of the story. Well students felt that it was too heavy of a burden whereas advisor's see the need to do so or else funding will get cut. Well, who's wrong no one knows. Today, someone joked about a motion what comes first is it the chicken or the egg? Same concept applies, in our daily lives the edge of chaos is very thin and it is very difficult to tell what is right and what is wrong.
While on my way home, I tried to debate on such a perspective with a third speaker's style and my answer was still the same, sure it was good and beneficial but it was all building sand castles in the air, things need to be taken a step at a time, if we're going to leap or fly we're bound to fall and it might be very difficult to pick myself up from the floor.
Well classes are released, well some classmates are the same and some facilitators too. My GPA dropped and I am very disappointed. Was it my attitude that had such a lash back? Too much inspirational stuff? Perhaps my year 1 style was better, just charge like a bull? Hmmm... got no idea to this perhaps things are getting tougher. Well as the saying goes when the going gets tough the tough gets going.
I believe that i will work even harder during second semester and I will pick myself up from this fall and work twice as hard. But again plain talk is not enough I promised to study and exercise more often during the holidays but I have failed to do so, seems like I am too caught up with dramas and DOTA. Up till now I haven't even continued doing my pp which I worked on ages ago. All good things must come to an end and it's time to get serious. Semester 2 here I come!
" Commitment is a line you must cross....it is the difference between dreaming and doing." -Bernie Fuchs
the origin.11:15 PM
During the holidays, most of my time I felt was well spent, however majority of it was spent on watching dramas and playing defense of the ancients. I would love to recommend to all drama lovers to watch young warriors of the young clan. You could try watching 2004 version, that was the one I watched. It was a really tear jerking one. I seldom cry when It comes to talking about tear jerking shows but the loyalty and the brotherly love made me feel like crying.
I have decided to spend even more time from now on watching dramas and playing games, sure some might say I am foolish and wasting time but I feel that it is time well spent. I would even give myself a pat on the back. After all this is the holidays, I am suppose to relax right?
Well actually I would really love to have a few very close friends or perhaps brothers who could do lots of things together. I do have good friends however we have different likings and hobbies, they are not obliged to do the same things as I do. I really miss secondary school, those were the days where you could bond with your friends and get to know each other really better.
Anyway I was going to talk about young warriors of the yang clan. Well the story is set in ancient china during the Song dynasty. It revolves around the yang family, a family which was very loyal to the emperor. The main lead being Yang Si Lang (Alec Su), the fourth son of the general. Well Yang Si Lang has poor constitution due to the fact that he actually got stabbed when he was a child by the enemy. Being protective of him, his parents brought him up in such a way such that minimum harm would be dealt to him regardless of what activity he was participating. This shaped him to become who he was. He didn’t like being over protected. He wanted to do a lot of things.
I believe that most of us would have heard the saying that serving the emperor is akin to serving a tiger. The emperor was a really foolish one who listened to corrupted officials. The most ironic thing was Yang Si Lang fell in love with the daughter of his father’s arch enemy. Well I won’t go into details. This drama is really nice but sad. Well there are twists and turns here and there. But overall 2 thumbs up.
Well, talking about society shaping us to who we are, likewise I myself am shaped to become who I am. Well a lot of my friends would say I am a really boring person, one who rushes home right after school, this isn’t entirely true. Like I said my life revolves around gaming, watching anime and dramas and of course studies. Well, to me every single minute should be “well spent” well some people would say that it isn’t time well spent. However this is what I like to do and it would most likely stay that way regardless of whether you like it a not.
Well … I really love to have a group of close friends in which we can do a lot of common things like playing basketball, watching dramas and anime. However this is only my wishful thinking. I really want to have something like a band of brothers. Oh well, I was walking home one day after buying groceries and as the breeze blew past, I felt sad once again. Well I recalled a movie called Xiao Qing. It’s about a mortal falling in love with a ghost. The ending was tear jerking once again. Well at the end of the show, the main character get to keep the ghost his lover in an umbrella. I was just wondering having someone you love beside you is such a blessing even though the main character didn’t get to do stuff main couples did but still he was pretty lucky I reckon. Well it’s 1.32 am and I should go to bed now.
the origin.11:39 AM