My Confession Box

Friday, December 26, 2008

Last night was one of those dreadful nights that we all experience once in a while. I tried turning in at 12.15am but ended up sleeping at 4.00am, it’s been days of sleepless nights turning in at 2am and waking up and 1.30pm. I seriously wonder if I am suffering from some sort of sleep disorder.
Anyway, while I was awake many things ran through my mind. I haven’t been reflecting much lately, it’s just 5 days till the year comes to an end, and certainly it is good to start off each year with new resolutions.

The holiday period has been rather boring. I’m not saying Christmas was terrible, the food was good and all that, but yeah I was kind of bored. Have you ever pondered to yourself what would your ideal Christmas day be like? Also, have you ever wondered what your normal ideal day would be like? Perhaps in the past, Christmas was about spending the entire day with Wei liang playing Diablo 2 and gaming. But if you were to ask me now, I really don’t know what would be deemed ideal.
Recently, Wei Liang introduced me to play World of WarCraft but apparently it wasn’t as appealing as it should have been. Rather it was kind of boring, it’s either the game isn’t suitable for me or my inquisitive spirit of curiosity did not spark off. I can’t wait till Diablo 3 gets released. I reckon it’ll probably be a captivating force that draws me closer each day.
With regards to an Ideal day, each day we hear people complaining about how routine base liked it has been but is it really a bad thing? Well for one thing I enjoy schooling days quite a lot. Sure if it gets excessive we all hope for a break but the point is it keeps us pre-occupied. It’s just as the saying goes “Another day, another carrot.”

I realized that many at times, my thoughts drift towards how an older person would think. If someone were to ask me “How’s Life?” I would probably say it sucks and there’s nothing much to look forward to. Why did I say such a thing? It’s because often I think from a perspective “Been there, Done that”. But truth is, there are loads of things that are not done. Instead of sitting down blatantly cursing, rotting and swearing, what I should be doing is to release the inner child within me fuelled with curiosity that desperately searches for answers.

Year 2009 will be joyful yet cloudy. Let’s take a look at what’s going to happen ...
Well, the biggest thing would probably be my closest cousin is going to get married. I recall when we were young we used to do loads of stuff together ranging from playing in the playground chasing the crazy old man to exploring the jungle-liked area behind my Dad’s Restaurant. These things appear so precious now.
Besides that the next big thing would be the arrival of “That day” in which I would be devastated, things look even worse because I’m about to enter the army but hopefully my new resolution which is to become a “Learner” would bring me forward in life.

Here is a quote that I can relate strongly to:
“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.” – The Wonder Years

[As we grow older, we tend to be too logical meaning we use our minds too much and that’s why we kill our inner child. Think about it, believing in Santa is it from the heart or the brain?]

the origin.7:35 PM