My Confession Box

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Have you heard of the saying, those who call others weird are actually weird. Well who here dares say he or she hasn’t called anyone weird before? Well, I definitely have called people weird before and maybe that’s why I’m starting to get weird. Anyway humans beings are really weird creatures.
Currently, my whole life is in a mess. In terms of the social aspect, I realized that I have fared extremely terribly when it comes to inter-personal relationships. I tried finding the cause of the problem and it sort of boiled down to something called “The need for one another”. Can your friends satisfy your needs? Can your girlfriend satisfy your needs? Can your parents satisfy your needs? [If your thinking sick here, you can try washing your face and coming back to read this seriously.]
It works somewhat like this, if let’s say you recently get engaged in a particular activity and say your good friend can’t find the time to do so, you actually make new friends who can satisfy your need of company. What happens later? You’ll realized that somehow you’ll be a little far apart from the one who used to be your good friends. Parents, if they can’t be understanding enough and all you wanted was a real parent who would give you advice and give care and concern but yet all your parent does is to work and quarrel, they’re probably no longer your parent but sponsors who provide you with what you need.
To put it plain blunt, humans are just god damn selfish. They just want to make use of one another. But as the saying goes, every cloud there is a silver lining. Perhaps not all people are so selfish.

Don’t you find it hard to talk to people sometimes? Fear what they think about you? Can’t everyone just be nice and accept one another? Can’t we just express ourselves? Despite saying so I’m quite the hypocrite myself, face it when people over-express themselves they get alienated. So what actually is the cause of the problem besides the part about “Needs”. Is it the fault of society or perhaps the advancement of technologies?
Certainly these things play an important role. Think about this if your friends sent you an email instead of using instant message in this century, what would you think? I told my friend that, and he said he would simply punch me the next time he sees me because it’s such a hassle of opening the god damn hotmail. This is one good example of people no longer writing letters as they used to. What’s wrong with writing letters ?! You see the world is too confined with “Ordinary Actions”.
I recall the other time when I met the gay gangster, I pondered why did humans turn out so differently even though we were all once babies. Well our society and the environment really plays a part in shaping us. Perhaps this causes the communication problems that we all experience in this present day.

I honestly think I might become a psychiatrist in the future that way I could sort out all my inter-personal relationship problems. Lately, I looked into some psychological models that explained the human character. I came across something called the big five personality traits the five factors being OCEAN. Which is ... Openness, Conscientiousness, Extraversion, Agreeableness, and Neuroticism. It’s how you actually classify someone’s character. I found that pretty interesting however this model has it’s limitations it does not take into account other factors that shape us to be who we are. This includes religion, identify, motivation, honesty etc...

Well, the bottom line is I’m a confused individual out there who’s trying to understand how the world works. Apparently I still haven’t come to an answer.

the origin.12:39 AM