My Confession Box

Monday, November 17, 2008

Life has been super tiring lately and today was exceptionally tiring. Unlike the normal days, I had UT followed by NAPFA. It’s the thing I have been training for ever since like god knows when. Basically, it was one of those days which ends with the phrase “Do you wanna hear the good news or the bad news?”

Well, it was sort of disappointing but not towards the extreme end and that is because I adhered to some of my principles. Well, to be exempted 2 months of basic military training we had to get a silver, however I knew it was beyond my capabilities. Despite so, I wanted to prove that I am no longer the old self the one that gives up before reaching the finishing line. I was aiming for a bronze. Well, I believe that I somewhat have proven myself but not fully. I managed to complete all stations except the pull up station. Unlike running, pull up is different. It’s not one that hanging on is good enough. It’s whether a not you can do one in the first place. Well most of my peers who are in the heavy weight category with me are unable to do it too. But that’s no excuse. Although I mentioned that it’s not about whether you have the heart to do it, but on the contrary it is. Sounds like some paradox but not quite. Let me explain myself. Perhaps at that point of time yes it was whether a not I could do it. But if only I started training from year 1. If only I didn’t eat like a monster during the transition break between secondary school and poly. Anyways today we had a taste public embarrassment, imagine people watching losers like me.
Well, technically I was at a disadvantage because I pulled one my calf muscles when working out on the sit-up station, the pain persisted till the end of the day. However this bring about the point of adhering to my principles that is persistence. I continued running despite the pain and actually did better than before. Although there is improvement from the 2.4km run session I had with Zubin, however that 30 of improvement still wasn’t enough. SEE! I knew it, I am always late. Too late to discover my faults and too late to change them.

But here comes the part about what next? Well, for one I won’t give up. The champion is the one that stands when all has fallen. I’ll be joining this programme that aims to help us reach the silver grade. (Good thing they didn’t call it TAF club. Otherwise it would be major embarrassing again) Set aside this I will continue what I am doing and put in 2 times the effort. [Where is Rock Lee when you need him -.-‘’’ set aside the chunin examinations, he hasn’t made a dynamic appearance in the past 200+ episodes of Naruto.] From tonight onwards I’ll try to turn in earlier. I need a healthy life style and no more late night DotA games.

(Every time I watch this episode of Naruto It makes me feel like crying. He’s my idol who deserves my respect.)

the origin.10:31 PM