“ For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace. ” - Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
A smile that hides a face of sadness.
I guess in life, we all have to go through some painful experiences and I like everyone will not be spared. Yesterday night, I kept tossing and turning because I couldn’t sleep. I felt very bothered by certain matters. Or rather, I have started to hate myself major big time. Months back, I thought to myself during one incident about certain people always preaching to tell others to do the right thing and yet when it comes to them, they do the direct opposite.
Today, I feel like a drug addict in a sense that “Why is it so difficult to do the right thing?”
There is this saying: “All good is hard. All evil is easy. Dying, losing, cheating, and mediocrity is easy. Stay away from easy.” – Scott Alexander
How do I feel about myself recently? I think I am a selfish and impatient individual. Take for instance, when my parents talk to me over matters I get impatient very quickly. My attitude towards grandma whom I respect a lot, isn’t turning particularly for the better. I realize that I have became very impatient.
(Above is a picture found on the net which I found particularly cool because it applied to how I want to lead life)
To think of others before oneself, to not hurt others at the expense of being trampled over by others. This is what I yearned to do but when it is done, there is this voice that amplifies the pain and soreness within me trying to reason with me to explode with rage.
I hope that my smile in time to come would be one that is filled with joy and not one that masks sadness.
the origin.3:52 PM