My Confession Box

Friday, August 31, 2007

Today's the 31st of August which is Teachers day. I went back to TWSS, met up with some of my friends, Big Lorry, TBH, Pang, Siow etc... Almost 60% of the teachers were new and i didn' really know them. Well I didn't really sat and watch the entire concert, rather me and Siow walked around the school. Walking around the school brought back many vivid memories. Each place meant something to me, take for instance near the basketball court and DNT room, lies this open area where I practiced Archery.

Although most parts of the school were rather same, however something was different, that was the people who are in the school. I no longer knew most of the teachers, neither was i particularly close to any of my good friends. I really miss Secondary school life a lot. Sure my computer really sucked then and I wasn't given much freedom but I really enjoyed it. Siow left early because he had to meet up with his JC friends, the others went to eat. However they split into two groups perhaps they had different likings of food. I however did not really join them, I was low on cash and I went home.

In the bus, there was this feeling within me, I wasn't very sure what it was but after awhile I concluded it was sadness and loneliness. As I walked home from the bus stop, I stopped and looked at the bus stop I had stop using since entering poly. It brought back many vivid memories as well. Well anonymous, I and a group of friends once played badminton there. All the dumb things I did sure made me feel awkward at times.

After going to poly I didn't had any friends who was exceptionally close to, perhaps because all of us had different likings, hobbies and personalities. Holidays have been on for a week and every night I tossed and turned hoping how time could be reversed. Did the problem lie with me because my personality was very weird. Well for one, some might say I am a very boring person. My life is pretty Simple, School, studies, playing games, TV and sports. It pretty much revolves around this. I don't have a habit of going out and talking crap very often like some people do. Not very sure either, I feel that every single minute of time is worth something and it should be put to good use for instance investing it in games. No idea why either that's perhaps my personality. I really hope I can find a group of friends of thinks like me soon.

"If man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer" -Henry David Thoreau

the origin.1:52 PM

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

“When one door closes, another opens, but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.” – Alexander Graham Bell

Almost at the end of every semester, I would dwell upon this quote. The first semester in year 2 is about to come to an end. E37L has left me with a lot of vivid memories. When I first entered the class, I remembered I was really worried. First off, my science sucked during secondary school and even my teachers said it was sort of a miracle I could get C5 for all 3 of them. The first week of school wasn’t a very good experience for me, the number of bright minds there certainly posed of a great challenge. However when the going gets the tough, the tough gets going. Looking back at it now, year 2 has been much of a greater challenge than year 1. I really am worried about whether I could make it into IPBMS. I am sure that as time passes, the people I meet are just going to be smarter and smarter. What am I going to do then? What if I struggle and fall behind too much?
Such questions have always appeared in my mind. I believe I should still stick to the mindset I have after I finished secondary school. This mindset is very similar to Rock Lee in Naruto. I believe that one should not look back too often, rather we should keep our minds focused and charge forward.

“ What lies behind us
And what lies before us
Are tiny matters compared
To what lies within Us “ - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Certainly this quote is important, I don’t have to care what lies ahead of me or what lies behind me, so what if I am not as bright as some of my peers. I just got to work harder than them. I believe that what lies within myself is a fighting spirit which would give it’s best in almost everything I do. That’s my drive in life. To give in my best shot in almost everything I do, this includes games and sports.

The upcoming holiday might be a really boring one. Maybe not, haven’t have much plans as well, I intend to practice basketball every day and workout more often. I wouldn’t want my classmates to address me as Tubby again it makes me look corny.

I am really going to miss my classmates quite a lot. I believe that I won’t be hearing words like crabby, lizi, tubby, Pikachu, ditto, clefairy etc… so often anymore. Sad definitely bad all good things must come to an end I guess.

the origin.5:38 PM